week 5/6

i think this is a rather common experience for those of us in outpatient primary care - the feeling of, what more can i be doing. i do feel really sheltered because of who i work for (large group), how i work (schedule largely laid out for me), and who i serve (higher socioeconomic class).  i think many of us may be experiencing professional existentialism - if i did not go into the job to serve and protect, just what am i doing? a struggle between required heroism and self-preservation.