Thursday, September 11, 2008

gchat is ruining my life

things aren't so bad.

kpeng127: so.... how many genitals will we see in our life time?
so embarassing.
me: oh wow
i never thought of it that way before
that's insane
kpeng127: yup.
yay doctors.

Adam: haha
THATs a cool roomy
i was just watching a buffy episode (yeah yeah), about her roommate who is actually a demon
so i think youre doing ok

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

if the Hadron Collider creates a black hole and the universe as we know it ends today,

what would you do with your last few hours?

i would eat a butt-load of ice cream and dim sum and fatty foods.
i would call anyone special who was not in my life anymore and tell them i miss them and that i'm sorry.
i would would lay face-down in the grass to hug the earth and listen to the insects and worms and plants one last time.

hm.

i could do all these things...today.

....mm. donuts.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

famous last words

week 4.

our first major test as a class has come and gone. it feels like it has already been 6 months. it feels like my entire life is anatomy. i don't hate anatomy, but it's freakin dry and boring.

it seems like the extracurriculars are getting under way. we're constantly having our classroom occupied by informational sessions (well it comes with free lunch often so i'm not complaining). but there's hardly any room in the brain to think about them, much less plan on doing them.

i am pretty adamant in my decision to not devote my entire goddamn life to getting that 100% in anatomy. even though it's crucial to what i want to do later on as a physician, i feel as though i have such a tenuous hold on myself as a person that i refuse to alter some of my older habits in order to accommodate my studies, including making sure i read every article (title at the very least) of the front page of the news, finding stuff online that makes me laugh, and dancing. so no, i'm not studying as hard as my peers right now. but these are things that i really need to do.

i mean, i'm passing so far. it should be do-able. right?


(...the shadows under my eyes are twice as big as they were 4 weeks ago.)